Some days you have to step off from your safety zone. Walk away from the normal and embrace the wild in order to find out who you really are. Sure it might turn out to be a disaster. I have had plenty of catastrophes and some near tragedy, but life needs to be about chances. Anything that's too easy with no fear involved isn't really much of a reward.
Remember that as your typing away on your manuscripts. There will be some people that feel threatened or uncomfortable by what you're trying to do. They probably don't mean to sound callous or disparaging, but it sometimes comes across like that. Don't get upset with them. They're just in awe by your courage.
Today let loose, dance--and let your creative spirit go crazy.